Brooke if only you could understand.

When will i be enough?
Im sorry.
If i could lie down and keep you from getting your feet wet i would.
If i could protect you from everything i would.
I would rather take the pain than see you suffer.
I feel like i am at blame if you get hurt, even when it is an uncontrollable variable.
If you cry, i am at fault.
Whether you blame me or not, i accept your troubles as mine.
I made a promise. The only one ive ever really kept.
My only regret was not knowing how much you were worth in the beginning.
Not knowing that, you were worth more than the rest.
You are my one regret.
I regret ever leaving you.
I regret letting you love me.
I should of only promised you my love.
Dont love me back because i'll never be enough.
Im sorry.
Im not the victim, and im not the attacker, but am i not to blame for being a bystander and not saving you. I love you and im sorry.

Stolen and Found Anew.

From my chest to my heart,
From a thought to a word,
your touch dictates mine,
our thoughts are intertwined.

"You are the dream I've been dreaming."

From the air caught in my lungs,
to the blood pulsing under my cool skin,
all a reaction to being one again.

"You are the dream I've been dreaming."

Wind In the Sails At Last.

Seconds tick by...

Minutes inch by...

Hours have flown....

Day and weeks pass without a backwards glance. Finally, months have wasted away with no change to show. Underneath the surface the waters are deep. The monsters are multiple, but break through to the surface and you'll find the mind numbing cold. The same wind that blows harshly cutting over the flat surface with nothing to challenge its path. It's all the same above water but what turmoil bubbles beneath the surface? Not even the ocean himself knows what it holds, not even the sea herself can control what happens within her. All it takes is one movement within and it all begin to set into motion.

It seems I've sailed upon a journey alone of late. Blown off course and lost a few along the way. Battered and a few leaks have sprung up here and there but continuing on. In search of what... that is something that has yet to reveal itself. 

Out at sea, without any sign of others in sight a creature began to swim along side my boat. It brought along words of wisdom. "You are no alone. You are never alone. I am always here. Beneath the waters I reside. You wont always see me, but from you I will never hide. I am not meant to live above with mortal men but now I rise. Now I tell you this... Believe."

"Believe in what?" I cried out. But he was gone. The ripples on the surface the only proof he was ever here.

I'm embarking on a journey. There will be great times of joy and independence and times of deep sorrow and solitude but I must go on because one day I will look out onto the horizon and see home on some distant shore. I've learned that letting go is the only way to be free. I no longer flounder on the surface trying to breathe air that isn't meant for me, but plunge under the surface to places unknown. I am free because of the words I've been told.